urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo Heather Heather 2008-10-25T01:38:18Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:84979 2008-10-25T01:38:18Z 2008-10-25T01:38:18Z <br />new site is up. just about finished, a few more tweaks here and there....the home page is still bothering me. changed it 5 fucking times now. UGH.<br /><br /><span style="font-size: medium"><span><strong>need critiques! <br /></strong></span></span>tear it up or praise it...just be specific please! :)<br /><span style="font-size: smaller">and yes, i know, its not seo friendly yet...i'll tag everything sunday when i get a spare second, lol.</span><br /><br /><a href="http://www.HZayne.com">www.HZayne.com</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:84516 2008-07-31T00:18:07Z 2008-07-31T00:18:07Z ignore what the masses say....buy dog clothes. <a href="http://www.nurdbunny.com"><font color="#ff00ff">www.nurdbunny.com</font></a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:84144 2007-08-04T15:50:03Z 2007-08-04T15:50:03Z JZ's woman....<br /><br /><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e109/mybrokenhalo/Elisa-small.jpg" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:83934 2007-07-04T01:11:46Z 2007-07-04T01:11:46Z here's this week's new one. if i get a moment soon, i wanna do a sick and wrong one to balance out all the dainty-pretty stuff.<br /><br /><br /><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e109/mybrokenhalo/jenny_small.jpg" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:83600 2007-06-21T00:07:41Z 2007-06-21T00:07:41Z bleep boop boop. i love this background. had to fucking use it for something damnit.<br /><br /><br /><br /><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e109/mybrokenhalo/reg-small.jpg" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:83351 2007-06-04T20:38:54Z 2007-06-04T20:38:54Z my boss kinda makes me wanna put a bullet in my head. today is no exception.<br /><br />i've had this nicotine patch deal going for 8 days. havent had one cigarette in over 44 hours now. from this point on, it will be at least another 17 days or so until i can have another puff. it's gonna be rough. seriously. patch comes off tomorrow and i'll be doin this raw dawg. blehk!<br /><br />not afraid of the knife or the aftermath. just the previously mentioned above. so surreal that i'll finally be getting what i've been wanting for over a decade. thursday it will finally be apart of me. literally. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:82951 2007-05-09T00:16:17Z 2007-05-09T00:16:17Z hehe. finally bit the bullet early last week and got the gym membership. got one at the ymca here in r.o. its nifty cuz the gym area is great and it has a fucking pool! yipee. so even ivy can benefit from it, lol. since i have zero energy after work, i've been getting up at 7am and going before work. going pretty damn well so far. puts me in a better state of mind.<br /><br />gotta go for the abs and buns of steel damnit!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:82851 2007-04-14T02:29:13Z 2007-04-14T02:29:13Z this week i discovered how impossible dreads are to pull off with out the 'fibers' filter. yeeeesh.<br /><br /><br /><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e109/mybrokenhalo/ash-small.jpg" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:82680 2007-04-08T22:00:23Z 2007-04-08T22:01:36Z today blew. not a big suprise, freaking christian holidays. uhg. feel so fucking empty and depressed. didnt help that my grandmother kept wanting to talk to me about my dead father. just sank me lower. couldnt even enjoy the company of my mother who has been gone for over a year and here she is, finally here, and im in the dumps. had to get out of there. my daughter left, going to her dad's again for the week. you'd think that would be a good time to do something, i dunno. but it's not gonna happen. just like the last handful of times she was gone for a week. my body is sore from working out with katy and my brain and heart feel like theyre melting out of my body, exceeding the irritation of my muscles......gonna take a hot bath in a lil while and wait for my head to explode... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:82363 2007-04-04T13:08:42Z 2007-04-04T13:08:42Z today is the BESTEST day ever! my mommy moves back home from Cali today!!! feel like a happy over-excited 3 yr old.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:81957 2007-04-01T05:25:20Z 2007-04-02T17:15:18Z even though i'm sick as hell the past few days, we managed to take some pics of shawn's car today.<br /><b>***EDIT: holy shit ass! wtf is up with the levels? i just saw my post from my work computer here and realized how horribly off the levels of the car are!!! my god! i mean, u can pretty much see the entire paths of the car! DAMNIT. i really need my monitor calibrated.....</b><br /><br /><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e109/mybrokenhalo/DSCF0033d.jpg"><p><br /><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e109/mybrokenhalo/DSCF0035b.jpg"><p><br /><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e109/mybrokenhalo/DSCF0011b.jpg"><p><br /><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e109/mybrokenhalo/DSCF0023.jpg"><p><br /><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e109/mybrokenhalo/DSCF0026c.jpg"><p><br /><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e109/mybrokenhalo/DSCF0029d.jpg"><p><br /><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e109/mybrokenhalo/DSCF0085.jpg"><p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:81838 2007-03-29T01:01:42Z 2007-03-29T01:01:42Z <b>ANYONE? is there a free clinic in oakland county for those of us who have massive ear infections and no inurance? </b>seriously? i mean come on. why do doctors have to be such bastards? fucking medicaid and medicare have to fuck the balance of a 'right price' for medical treatment. god damnit. one walk-in clinic i just called wants $105 just to be seen. anything the doctor does to me can range between $75-$500...wtf? this is a private practice walk-in clinic. ya know 99% of people who go there have no insurance! why rape them? i fucking hate this country. this is why my ass has thousands of dollars in hospital bills on my record...i'm so bothered and annoyed, fucking dizzy and the rigt side of my head is totally plugged from this ear. i can feel the shit all the nerves from the side of my skull, in my inner ear, down to the side of my neck. totally fucked. off and on off and on off and on since friday. hasnt let up since this morning. shit ass muther fucking fuck fuck i just want it to stop already. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:81503 2007-03-28T20:49:47Z 2007-03-28T20:49:47Z today has been without a doubt the most piece of shit day so far this year!!! FUCK. it couldnt be anymore difficult, complex, humiliating, disasterous and to top it off it feels like there is a slow inflating balloon building pressure in my right ear canal. niiiiice. so fucking perfect. get me out of here. need to go home and lay on the heating pad.<br /><br />::grunt:: urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:81296 2007-03-23T18:15:58Z 2007-03-23T18:17:04Z hi. teaching yourself 3D is a serious pain. no really.......uhg. need to work on the shader thingys, not diggin how the freaking chairs came out. fuck it. oh ya, my ambient light looks too fucking intense too. :::sigh::: k. think i've had enough for today....how lame.<br /><br /><br /><img src="http://www.flexidisplay.com/images/officewallpanels.gif"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:81047 2007-03-02T19:58:16Z 2007-03-02T20:00:02Z whats better than the end of the week and payday? hehe, not much. got some shit planned to get done though i did have it incorrectly in my head that the movie <b>300</b> was supposed to be out tomorrow...bleh, nope, was wrong, march 9th. damn. oh well, got yoga to do tomorrow morning, got galleries to visit in the afternoon, got submissions to prepare for entry, got basement organizing to do. fun stuff. feelin rather energized today! <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i like bewbz. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:80770 2007-02-27T03:01:48Z 2007-02-27T03:01:48Z so for quite some time now, i've really come to enjoy how nice myspace is for artist networking. last week a fellow artist and myself did a bit of some trade work. he does some bad ass stencil art and did one of me so in return i did an illustration. lol. <br /><br /><br /><img src="http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e109/mybrokenhalo/jack_small.jpg" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:80547 2007-02-26T18:23:01Z 2007-02-26T18:25:47Z i learned this weekend that Benihana is a bad-mamajama place. like, seriously, i know its not the kind of place shawn can afford to take me to all the time, but holy shit ballz was it worth a great anniversary dinner. so god damn entertaining! i love the chefs at the table and the hot little jap girlz tittering around. very nice. and everything that was served was so fucking yummy!!!! had tasty juicy filet mignon, onion soup, EVIL GOOD chicken-brown rice, girlled shrimp w/lemon, and a nice strawberry frou-frou drink with a cute lil green umbrella. only stuff i didnt want to take part in was the salad with the weird ginger dressing nd the vegstables. i reeeeeeeeeally hate veggies. i know, im a bad girl. prolly why i'm so unhealthy...<br /><br />somewhat in a strange mood today. happy and yet very disconnected. feel like i need to seperate myself from certain emotions & moods, and their directions for awhile. just kind of do an emotion housecleaning for a few weeks ya know? its been rather stressful and disconcerting for quite sometime now. prolly the winter. does it everytime. spring is around the corner (i hope at least). have alot of stuff to anticipate, plan, arrange, ect. gonna have to stop being so involved with things that arent even remotely constructive, and put my focus back where it should be. <br /><br />do i feel happy??? not sure what the current feeling is, lol.<br /><br />at least the malaysian government project is over with. well the display anyway, now onto their graphics....bleh. DRUGS ARE BAD, COPS ARE GOOD, i think they want the translation to say. hehehe. crazy foreigners. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:80343 2007-02-21T21:10:27Z 2007-02-21T21:10:27Z oh my fucking god! i seriously doubt i have <b>EVER</b> worked as hard as i did today. SERIOUSLY. my back, wrists, forearms, palms, fingers and neck is throbbing in mad ass pain. wow, it's quite uncomfortable to even type right now.<br /><br />please mr. boss man, let me go back to my desk, lol. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:80098 2007-02-19T23:05:24Z 2007-02-19T23:10:02Z its like a flesh eating disease my mood has been in lately...<br /><br />the depression kicks in pretty hard when things dont or wont fall into place and it gets rather intense ontop of things when im not being productive. last week at work was rather intense and this week will be so as well except times threefold. body is crazy sore today and i almost lost my thumb on a tablesaw, pretty peculair predicment for a graphic designer. need a vacation, need an escape, need excitement, need need need, what a filthy word. shawn and i had our 4 year anniversary on valentines day but havent been able to celebrate yet due to his sinus' playing a cruel joke on him (us). i needed to be out and about this weekend but was only able to get over to taresa's on sunday for some relaxation and good conversation. my daughter is at her father's for the week and i cant even take advantage of that aside from sleeping in 10 minutes later than normal. <br /><br />i dunno. things just dont feel right. where is the empathy and understanding? prolly lost in translation between the sexes. think i mightve just fallen down the well too fast. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:79740 2007-02-08T03:37:59Z 2007-02-08T03:42:46Z <h1><c>с днем рождения Kirill</c></h1><br />Я надеюсь, что Вы получаете alot мудрость, подарки, и некоторое влагалище!!!! lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:79415 2007-02-07T19:33:13Z 2007-02-07T19:43:01Z so ya. here's an amusing update to my last entry....<br /><br />when i got home from work on monday, shawn had kindly went out and got me a tire and put that fucker on with some great difficulty. later, i had to drop off my daughter on the other side of town since she was going to have another day off from school on tuesday. as soon as i get off the freeway, i heard this noise that sounds almost like a flat tire, but the car isnt thumping. i pull over, no flat. what gives? then it dawns on me.....shawn accidentally forgot to tighten the lugnuts when it was put down off the jack. "no biggie" i think to myself. and drive slowly to her grandmother's house hoping that her uncle is home with a four-way. alas i get there and he is not home nor does grammy have a 4way. so to make a long story short....i ended up driving along to 5 different gas stations and a HungryHowies asking all clerks and customers in the lots and ect, if they had a fourway and at which point the lug nuts were sooooooooooo loose that i could easily twist them with my fingers. AND IT WAS FUCKING <b>FREEEZING</b> out!!!! was scared shitless that the asshole tire was gonna fall off and some <b>dickbag</b> from the 2and gas station kept following me around from place to place trying to talk to me and say shit like <i>"oh, i dont wanna leave you stranded. you should let me drive you somewhere".....</i>ya, thanx but no thanx. call warren police to see if they had an officer that might happen to be in the area with a 4way in his car and of course, the cop was a screaming riot of a <b>DICKFACE-ASSHAT</b>!!!!%&%&^%^%I&Y*&)(*#<br /><br />so eventually i breakdown freaking out in tears, annoyed that out of like 50 people, no one has shit and wont help, i call up shawn (which i was avoiding, didnt wanna blow him totally over the edge) ask him to come all the way out to warren to fix the nuts and 2 seconds after i hang up, a customer starts walkin over the my car after seein me cryin and my hazards were on. he had a fourway, holy shit, save the day. on the way home of course the "check engine" light comes on and begins blinking. could my luck possibly get worse??? i remember that i need to put oil and antifreeze in. so i do when i get home. but as i pour in the antifreeze, it directly comes out onto the ground from underneath. <b>F'N GREAT</b>. i call my brother, bad news, he'll come over in the morning and i'll call into work. so i go to bed and forget to turn off my headlights....<br /><br />TUESDAY: i awake to find my car dead. not just dead but <b>DEAD</b>. had to buy a whole new battery. but my brother fixed the hose then tells me that the check-engine light is blinking cuz my engine is about to DIE if it doesnt get an oil change and SOON. so car fixed just in time for my dentist appt. in all the hub-uhb, i forgot to eat something, so ya, 10-15 minutes after they began, i got sick from the nitrous. REAL SICK. we had to stop. i gave up and went home and got sick more there. so to sum it all up.....i really hope that whole bad luck, ect is done for the week cuz that was all too much for me for a 2-day span. all i needed to top it all off was some kidney stones or an ear infection. that woulda been <b>HOT</b>.<br /><br />okay, i hope that was the last of my whinning-freaking out-boohooing for the rest of the week....<br /><br />at least i just noticed i won $2 on the BigGame. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:79271 2007-02-05T19:10:51Z 2007-02-05T19:10:51Z splendid. so far today has been going like ASS. woke up today with all sorts of issues....<br /><br />* school was cancellled for Ivy cuz its too cold out?!?!?!<br />* my car took 5 minutes to start cuz there isnt enough antifreeze in there<br />* after getting car started, realize i have a seriously flat tire.<br /><br />so with that, i was going to call into work and try and get my tire fixed and blah blah blah but my boss decided that it would be better if he came and picked me and my daughter up so i can come to work anyway!!! lol. greeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeat.....blah.<br /><br />this whole day stinks. had very important plans later that now have to be cancelled, poor shawn is gonna have to fix the f'n tire when he gets home from work....and lemme tell you how much that is his ***favorite*** thing to do for me......uh huh, riiiiight. i dont even think if i made him a magically wonderful dinner and juggled his balls would put him in a good mood now. arg. oh well, i'll try and make it up to him somehow...... <br /><br /><br /><br /><br />and tomorrow is root canal day. <br /><br />ranting and whinning fit over. sorry. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:78974 2007-01-31T02:41:24Z 2007-01-31T02:43:58Z er.....yup. dreds are lookin kinda mangley...i dont even think thats a word. but fuck it! im a happy biznatch cuz my new teeth project starts this thursday and its costing me 1/2 of what i anticipated. yup, for $3000 you too can have a beautiful grill....hehe. <br />...:::about time i hear the crowd echo:::....<br /><br /><img src="http://a223.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/33/l_828501a5edb30b6e135466d31345b9e6.jpg" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:78836 2007-01-21T17:32:08Z 2007-01-21T17:33:06Z <h1><b>Bookworm</b></h1><br />1. Grab the nearest book<br />2. Open the book to page 123.<br />3. Find the fifth sentence.<br />4. Post the text of the next 3 sentences on your blog along with these instructions.<br />5. Don't you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest.<br />6. Tag 5 people <br />------------------------------------------------------<br />1. ok.<br />2. ok<br />3. ok<br />4. he walkedback into the house looking around for the remotecontrol circling the corners of his room not finding it. billy groggied one leg lapsed out of bed and blackstraps of deepurple band his body. spreading out whiteviolet lulls droning him down the stairs.<br />5. first two books i picked up here by my computer were art books with no words on those pages, then the third was a poetry book by james hart<br />6. <b>atsiluth, nuriochi_sol, luciferian, xcopy, m_saint</b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mybrokenhalo:78586 2007-01-19T19:57:45Z 2007-01-19T20:00:53Z oh what the bleeding hell.....<br /><br />kidneys still throbbing. seems like they hibernate until around 10 or 11am then wake up and grow fussier as the day goes on. by 6:00 theyre full force thumping. or at least thats how its been since the day before yesterday. last weekend was the bladder infection that i thought had gone away but apparently it got into my damn kidneys. fucking shitty.<br /><br />what im finding somewhat odd and distracting is that i have a small fever but something is going on with the strength of my legs. THERE IS NONE. my entire legs and thighs feel so weak and tired that i'll go to get up for something but its difficult and walking feels strange. i dunno what the fuck all thats about.<br /><br />this is all coming at a reeeeeeeeeeeeallly bad time. at 7:00 tonight, i have a girl coming by so i can start her dreds and what not. i'll prolly have to do the second half tomorrow in the late afternoon cuz i just found out that early saturday morningish, i have to drive out to f'n oxford michigan to do a quick photoshoot for a client through my work here. something about a farm and electronic gates, whatev. <br /><b>POINT BEING,</b> is i have plans to make a pretty decent amount of extra cash this weekend and i dont need these asshole kidneys fucking that up for me.<br /><br />more cipros, large quantities of cranberry juice.....blarg.